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Worn out. Slightly depressed feeling on and off all night. So glad it's my Friday I could cry.

Realized at some point during work that, despite my intentions of not doing this? For some time now I've been being a jerk. In tiny, small ways, but it's that cumulative effect. >.< Started working on it again, but it's harder to stop being a jerk once you've started.

Also, it's hard to stop something when the basic impulse feels... justified at least. Someone hits you, you hit back sort of feeling?

So. I will just be talking to myself in an annoying talking-to-children voice (which is really adults talking to smaller/younger people they think don't understand they're being insulted, but that could develop into a rant of some form and I am trying to kill the depressing behaviour, not feed it righteous indignation)

"I am not an asshat." she says to herself, "Repeat after me: I am not an asshat."

What I am is in one of those worn-out tired states where you don't entirely care what you're saying or how it looks because your mouth or fingers are running your brain, rather than the other way around and with that convienent time lag in so you can decide if you're actually going to say or type something. Although typing this has made me feel a little better?

Also a very shiny picture I was shown. ^.^

...I need chocolate. And to magically lose a week so I could already be on vacation. But I can actually have chocolate.

*crashes*

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Feeling better now - this is probably due to the ingestion of several pieces of dark chocolate. And that sleeping thing. And more chocolate. And waking up to find out that Yes! My Troopers dvd has come in!

^_^

Now I am trying to wake up sufficently to be driving, before I head out. <.<

ETA I have returned! I have pizza for breakfast! Which my cat is currently trying to confiscate. :P I have coffee and tiny piece of chocolate cake and now I shall go and fry my brain with a marathon of Ronin Warriors!

Yay! :D