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So. Result of dentist visit: All four wisdom teeth need to be pulled, and I'm looking at one root canal, maybe two. All my fillings need to be redone as well.

And, I have a consulting visit with the doctor I've referred to for the pulling, who will hopefully get this done before the new year. Since that's better for my insurance. This visit is tomorrow, at 2.

Tomorrow. After my exit exam. Which has me scared stiff and which I haven't had the time to study for and I am now freaking out and wondering if I shouldn't call in to work so I can spend the day studying for that.

But then, I can take the book to work with me and probably get as much done as I would staying home, where there are many more things to distract me.

On the other hand, I did like this dentist? Not at all the sort of condescending lecturing that I got out of the last one, and the receptionist was very helpful about figuring out my insurance, which I have sadly not kept up with because I never use it.

Somehow, I ended up energetic and distracted and never did finish anything else that I'd meant to.

Except cleaning.

And thinking about the nameless fanfic-thing, without actually doing anything, until I was final forced to admit that what I needed to do was go and ask dedmerath what she thought of fanfic based on the most excellent Orgy 13 as Twilight Town kids art she has done. Because I <3s them I do. So Many Hearts!

And she said yes! :D Squeee!

...homg, now I kind of need to actually work on this. Now being laughed at by muses. None of them have friendly laughs. Even Demyx has the meanest little laugh, like the kid who makes fun of someone who's been pranked. >.>

So! Over all pleased with myself, because the making sure I got enough sleep did give me more energy, I just couldn't focus worth peanuts. mmmm, peanuts. Um.

Goals for tonight: Signing up for Yuletide! And being poked/badgered/somehow proving useful for shusu Yuletideness? I phailed there. -.-
Another thousand words for Lost Hours ^^
Work on multiplication practice, as I still phail at that also. :/ By extension, multiplying decimals practice. ...I hate math.
Twilight Town fic, homg. Made of win. XD

( KH2 spoilery babble squee )

Test results are: 92%

I? Rock. *does the Snoopy dance*

First off, I have barely been getting any math studying in. Not happy with myself, there. Anyone who might see me online during my weekend, kick me, make sure I am doing this? ^^;

So, then there's the fun with the water, which now has an orangish film developing over it. (ewwwww) I have been told this is a hard water problem, and we need more salt in. I have seen these bags of salt, and will be getting someone in the store to do the incredibly heavy lifting for me. >.>

The power went out today, due to which I hardly got any sleep. First I couldn't fall asleep until I opened the window to listen to the lovely rain ...which was of course responsible for the loss of power. Then I woke up at some undetermined point and couldn't get back to sleep because I was baking in the heat, and lay there kind of tossing and turning until the power finally came on - bringing with it blessed air conditioning! At which point I kind of just drifted back off in relief.

Strange dreams the past couple of days, too. ( dreamsss )

After making the call I needed to about the college scholarship, and having to leave a message on an answering machine? I go to take out the trash.

I realize I have not checked the mail for a couple of days, and this is Bad.

I find: junk mail, my next bill for the eye surgery, a letter from Lacey (yay! *hugs*) and... a box from California? O.o Who do I know, I ask myself, who lives in California? And why would they send me a box? And what is in this box of uncertain origin?

I start the laundry I had set aside before taking the trash out, and by the time I got in I'd half convinced myself that this was someone else's mail sent to the wrong address.

This did not stop me from opening it, since that was the only way to be sure. >.>

I almost cried. I mean. With the crummy heavy working and the stupid intermittent cable problems and the growing suspicion that I may have missed my shot at starting this semester? I'm feeling really worn out and overwhelmed.

But eee, I have Mint Coffee Bath-Things. There's lip-gloss, and and. omg, I need a bath-pouf, this calls for A Very Fancy and Relaxing Bath! ...I have no bath-pouf, ahhh! XD shusu! eeeeee, thank you thank you :D

After work tomorrow/tonight, I will have a bath-pouf. Oh yes. And then I will have a Very Fancy Bath to look forward to, after my next trip downtown to fill out some financial-aid paperwork I didn't know about until the gentleman who re-directed my phone call told me I was missing a couple of things. He was at the open house where all this started, too - it's how he knew who to send my call too. I shall take that as a good sign, and keep reminding myself that even if I miss this semester, it is not the end of college or anything. *kicks reflexes of exaggerated panic*

Now, to scoop all the Lacey-bees off my desk, and go get some sleep, that I might actually be awake later on. ^_^

Have returned from college (an hour and a half ago... x.x ) with the knowledge that:

1. I should have already filled out this lovely financial aid application which has been given to me, but

2. I'm still on-schedule to start in the fall schedule, as long as I keep a move on, here.

So. When I wake up, I shall be hunting up the tax return and W2 forms needed for this! Also there's information online and/or I can come back to the college's financial aid office if I need help with the actual filling out.

Also while I'm at my hunting I will probably do any number of other organizing things. Crossing my fingers, anyway.

Today I noticed my first white hair. Just kind of poking through the others. I (I believe understandably) freaked out. ...of course, I also have a hypochondriac for a father plus a tendency to over-react that's all me, so. The scene in my head could best be described as "ohgod I'm going to die an early death from stress or malnutrition or maybe it's the severe lack of sleep lately but any possible cause only leads to my dying"

x.x I'm rather glad I was at work, because the desire not to humiliate myself forced me to get a grip? I'm still a bit worried, but most likely it's just stress - things have been extra-shitty at work, lately. And they're talking about cutting our hours when they start changing our schedules into the randomized crap the day shift has to deal with. Starting the 14th. The first week of this nonsense is up already, and my days off will be Sunday and then Tuesday. %$#@

So, added to pushing myself step by step towards college, yeah. I can see stress. Not that this stops me freaking out completely, just... reduces it to yet another worry. Like my teeth. Which I really should be looking into a dentist for, see above stupidity and apply to teeth.

So, as I got through the night reminding myself: I will be enjoying this weekend. I've got a cheap disposable camera and plan to go back downtown just to try and take pictures of the library there. I will probably be going to this library for the foreseeable future. So pretty and comfortable and guarded by the giant owl statue. ;p

Meanwhile I made sure today was productive, as the electricity is paid and my old badge dropped off (they're insisting we wear them now, and with the bit that connects it to a hook broken for ages now... ) so that a new shiny one will be waiting for me when I get in. I've got a cute frog-decorated lanyard to wear it around my neck with, too.

And my college assessment test is scheduled for July 11th at 9:00 am. The telephone hoops jumped through to arrange this included mention of a couple of links to help me prepare, which I will be looking up later. But right now, I need sleep.

So, I finally nerved myself up to call downtown campus and ask what my next step should be. And oh, the joy, so much still to do. x.x And it's back to what I've started thinking of as "o no college!!!" angst. ...I need a tag and an icon for this.

But what it amounts to is she thinks I should go in and see a career counseling sort of person. Again. They do walk-ins from 8:30 to 11:00 apparently. ...yeah, not today.

However, I'm thinking about it this weekend. If I can nerve myself up for that. I'm thinking of bribes, actually, along the lines of coffee and the downtown library, which was rebuilt sometime last year and I haven't seen it yet. And possibly the Cummer Museum, too. Depending on how long I could stay awake...

I cross my fingers but will make no promises in this department, as failing to keep such would only leave me more incredibly disappointed in myself.