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Jun. 11th, 2006 10:28 amWell, we have no running water. And I say we only because this also affects my brother. Dad believes something is wrong with the pump, and will be back around this afternoon to check that out.
Meanwhile I had a depressed talk with my sister about not coming out there yet - I'm hoping Dad will have it fixed this afternoon. If not, then a plumber Monday, and I'll be driving out to the sis's in the morning.
With laundry for her to help me with - yay laundromat trips?
On the way back to work to pick up some more of the special preservative-free eye drops I have to use in place of actual tears, I realized why I was getting depressed. No water, worrying about money due to the new eyes-bill i will have to deal with... feels a lot like days in my childhood, living in the trailer and having the power go out due to not having money, due to the fact that neither of my parents could ever manage to keep anything balanced back then.
Dad has improved since then - I can't speak for Mom because she is not in this state and we don't keep in touch.
So I'm wandering through Wal-mart, thinking I have to get a prescription filled for these eye drops. and getting some water to use at the house. And trying to reinforce in my jittery nervous 'I have ruined my financial future!' head that hello, I am not my parents. If anything, I have been too stingy with money, and the recent run on cash has been partly doing things that are good for me, and otherwise out of my control. I have a plan for dealing with this bill, even - I know what I'm doing, I just can't do anything right now.
I have to give my eyes time to finish healing before I go looking for anything. Besides which there are other options that my lazy and lacking in self confidence attitude have stopped me exploring, and I really need to work on that too - namely I know that when I put my mind to it I can make beautiful things, which I could be trying to sell - but I never put in the time and effort it would take to make something of a good enough quality for that.
For now, though, I found my eye drops on the shelf, so I don't need a prescription for those. Felt a little bit silly there, but also glad I checked the shelf - it's always fun to ask for help finding something that turns out to be right behind you, yes? In this case literally - it's visible from the pharmacy window. Ha.
I have finished uploading my vacation photos! I'll be going through tagging and describing as memory and motivation permit. Finally got my favorite up there - look for trees in clouds! Also uploaded - a picture of my shiny new 9x13 cake pan, and the delicious coffee cake that was in it. The coffee cake has since passed on, but I shall treasure its memory. :P Also a self-portrait in the bathroom mirror, trying to show my eyes and the interesting little blood pools still in them from the surgery. Sadly, I look like a dork. But it didn't stop me. :PP
But right now? I'm going to play Breath of Fire IV for a little bit, since I think I'm too wound up to sleep yet. x.x
Meanwhile I had a depressed talk with my sister about not coming out there yet - I'm hoping Dad will have it fixed this afternoon. If not, then a plumber Monday, and I'll be driving out to the sis's in the morning.
With laundry for her to help me with - yay laundromat trips?
On the way back to work to pick up some more of the special preservative-free eye drops I have to use in place of actual tears, I realized why I was getting depressed. No water, worrying about money due to the new eyes-bill i will have to deal with... feels a lot like days in my childhood, living in the trailer and having the power go out due to not having money, due to the fact that neither of my parents could ever manage to keep anything balanced back then.
Dad has improved since then - I can't speak for Mom because she is not in this state and we don't keep in touch.
So I'm wandering through Wal-mart, thinking I have to get a prescription filled for these eye drops. and getting some water to use at the house. And trying to reinforce in my jittery nervous 'I have ruined my financial future!' head that hello, I am not my parents. If anything, I have been too stingy with money, and the recent run on cash has been partly doing things that are good for me, and otherwise out of my control. I have a plan for dealing with this bill, even - I know what I'm doing, I just can't do anything right now.
I have to give my eyes time to finish healing before I go looking for anything. Besides which there are other options that my lazy and lacking in self confidence attitude have stopped me exploring, and I really need to work on that too - namely I know that when I put my mind to it I can make beautiful things, which I could be trying to sell - but I never put in the time and effort it would take to make something of a good enough quality for that.
For now, though, I found my eye drops on the shelf, so I don't need a prescription for those. Felt a little bit silly there, but also glad I checked the shelf - it's always fun to ask for help finding something that turns out to be right behind you, yes? In this case literally - it's visible from the pharmacy window. Ha.
I have finished uploading my vacation photos! I'll be going through tagging and describing as memory and motivation permit. Finally got my favorite up there - look for trees in clouds! Also uploaded - a picture of my shiny new 9x13 cake pan, and the delicious coffee cake that was in it. The coffee cake has since passed on, but I shall treasure its memory. :P Also a self-portrait in the bathroom mirror, trying to show my eyes and the interesting little blood pools still in them from the surgery. Sadly, I look like a dork. But it didn't stop me. :PP
But right now? I'm going to play Breath of Fire IV for a little bit, since I think I'm too wound up to sleep yet. x.x