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[spoke]

Work was going okay. Except as I was leaving, that bastard Jimmy tried to stop and talk to me. Should've stayed, since I was off the clock, and told him exactly what I think of him.. somehow I ended up blurting out "Oh I'm fine." and walking away, instead.

So I'm trying not to think about that, and almost manage to get my mind off it once I get home.

11:18, there's pounding on the door. At first I thought i was one of my little brother's stupid friends and if I ignored it long enough they'd go away. Didn't happen. Instead, it turns out to be Mom. Asking me for 400 dollars. And I told her no.

And she kept at me, trying to guilt trip me, and I do feel bad for her... but just, no. She has had so much money from Dad that she could've spent better than she did, I was there for way too much of her throwing money around, and it - she got a freaking college education and she hasn't really done anything with it, she could be doing so much better for herself and now she doesn't even have this? I told her no, and I went through the guilt-trip as she's walking out the door routine. Naturally. And I went into the kitchen for a minute and just stood there and then I ended up screaming and hitting the wall.

Which of course knocked the face plate off the damn A/C and I don't know what's going to happen with that. Larry or someone seems to have jerry-rigged it, though.

It's just.. I'm trying too hard to get myself out of here, I don't know when, if ever, I'm going to be able to go to college probably won't be able to move until sometime next year I've got Larry here running up the eletricity that he hardly helps with and she knows it and she wants to borrow money from me. She wakes me up like I have money lying around.

Hell no.

As she told me up in Carolina, she can find something in walking distance.

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