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This would be the post I meant to make yesterday.

Most of the week, I spent still pondering the impossibility of ever catching up with everything.

Sunday evening/Monday morning shift, I was looking at some poems I'd brought with me and a short story idea just popped out of one. ^^ Especially surprising since I'm used to stories that have a sense of being connected to other stories, etc until it can give me a headache. But not this one.

Also got a fragment on what I've begun to think of as 'the never-ending story'. This will mean something to maybe one person reading this, but I feel like mentioning. Just because I feel like pulling cryptic like that. ^^;

Still making my way through Otherland. I think now, I must've started when the second book was already out. The first two have a more familiar feel to them.

This one, I keep catching myself on unremembered things, concern for the characters still sharp because I don't have that feeling… of knowing even though I don't remember, that everything will be alright, that so-and-so will not actually meet the horrible fate threatening them. o.o;

And I noticed a certain similarity between one of the characters and my favorite Troopers character, Shuten. …It's hard to describe an emotional impact like this without spoiling.

Shuten, and Gerald Tarrant too, and Orlando Gardiner. Just this sense of perseverance in the face of odds that would flatten most people. In spite of the fact that they all come to this point where they could have turned back, and no one would have blamed them. That they reached this point where it's just enough, already, and the story could've ended, for them, with letting go of their respective burdens. It wouldn't have been a happy-ending story, maybe, but then none of them quite get those anyway.

Although I think Shuten's is the worst for pure ';_; No! Not fair!'

…It's also weird (or maybe just fangirly) that every time I think that, Shuten's response is annoyance, because he made his own decisions and what is my problem, exactly? <<

Hmm, let me think. The ;_; , that would be my problem.

But it's also interesting how that perseverance is the same at its roots, but grows differently through each character. Gerald's utter certainty of his own superior vision and understanding, Shuten's desire to change, Orlando not even having a reason outside of the need to persevere, itself. Then the quest.

And something else that occurs to me, too, this time. How much that boy is like his parents. The brittle strength and the ability to keep going… at first reading, I hadn't liked his parents very much. They seemed too cold? But really, Orlando takes after them a lot. It isn't coldness so much as it is extreme pragmatism. And I think, when it comes down to the final decisions, the important ones, they would've made the same choices he did.

I almost wish I could tell Decatur Ramsey that. It might make the poor guy feel better.

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