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Aug. 10th, 2005 09:32 am( Work griping )
But. It did cause me to end up standing at the door in place of our missing door greeter - not sure where he was, or if maybe it was his day off. Standing there forever gave me time to think, and something occured to me.
I do not need to straighten and sort out everything right away. It serves no immediate purpose except to keep me occupied, and there a lot more interesting and useful things I could be doing. Like actual art again, instead of doodling and thinking about what I'd like to do if I had room - hello, nice sized kitchen table, all I have to do is get it cleared off and cleaned up! And I need new glasses and have pestered Dad into recommending a place he has used before that shouldn't be too expensive - I need to set up an appointment for an exam, since I probably need a new prescription.
And after that we'll see.
Really, I think all of this sounds whiny? Or negative somehow, but it felt wonderful. Because I've been constantly fighting off feeling depressed and worn out and when it occured to me I could just neatly pack things into boxes and deal with them on my own time instead of right? It made me realize it looks just like the trailer right now. A sloppy, crammed-into-places mess.
And it doesn't have to, and I don't have to make all the little decisions and do all the work right off, and wheee! ^_^;
Right now, though, I am moody and nervous about getting an appointment set up. And sleepy. And pmsing. Later, I shall be glad I have the chocolate that I can't eat right now because then I wouldn't sleep.
Clearly, it well past time to crash. Except for this one last thing, because I can and I love this song.
Mary Chapin Carpenter - Ideas Are Like Stars
But. It did cause me to end up standing at the door in place of our missing door greeter - not sure where he was, or if maybe it was his day off. Standing there forever gave me time to think, and something occured to me.
I do not need to straighten and sort out everything right away. It serves no immediate purpose except to keep me occupied, and there a lot more interesting and useful things I could be doing. Like actual art again, instead of doodling and thinking about what I'd like to do if I had room - hello, nice sized kitchen table, all I have to do is get it cleared off and cleaned up! And I need new glasses and have pestered Dad into recommending a place he has used before that shouldn't be too expensive - I need to set up an appointment for an exam, since I probably need a new prescription.
And after that we'll see.
Really, I think all of this sounds whiny? Or negative somehow, but it felt wonderful. Because I've been constantly fighting off feeling depressed and worn out and when it occured to me I could just neatly pack things into boxes and deal with them on my own time instead of right? It made me realize it looks just like the trailer right now. A sloppy, crammed-into-places mess.
And it doesn't have to, and I don't have to make all the little decisions and do all the work right off, and wheee! ^_^;
Right now, though, I am moody and nervous about getting an appointment set up. And sleepy. And pmsing. Later, I shall be glad I have the chocolate that I can't eat right now because then I wouldn't sleep.
Clearly, it well past time to crash. Except for this one last thing, because I can and I love this song.
Mary Chapin Carpenter - Ideas Are Like Stars
