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[spoke]

Sometimes, I realize I have the best Dad.

I didn't even see the shuttle fall. I just heard about it after, when I got up. I could have killed my sister for the way she put it, even though it was the way it had been put to her.

"You know that shuttle that was supposed to land today? Well, it did. In pieces all over Texas."

So she goes off to do her running and takes the boys with her. I'm sitting the whole day kind of numb. Reading as much as I could find, once I got online. Most of the day, I couldn't get on, so I just sat, typing and thinking. Or trying not to think.

She same home around 4. She was going to Walmart, and I needed to get a money order, shelling out a little more to keep my car.

Around 4:30, we're out and on a highway, and we get stopped. We saw a heliocopter and thought it was a news chopper.

It was Lifeflight. We can't have gotten there more than 20 minutes after the accident. We were stuck in traffic for about an hour. When the traffic started moving again, and we could see what happened... Damn.

It was on an off ramp. 3 cars. One looked okay, like it just careened off to the side. One was hanging over the safety railing. And the last one was wrapped around the pole /on the side of the incline/. How the hell that happened, I don't know. Sis was saying something about how even a military vehicle shouldn't have been able to take that incline fast enough to do that.

I don't think she even noticed how upset I was. And I was thinking about the shuttle, too, and that I was being shallow to be concerned about my own driving... but looking at that, I couldn't help thinking 'do I even want to learn this?'.

So we get home, and I go back to my room. More thinking and trying not to think, and listening to the radio. Reading a book.

About 11:30, Dad gets home. He comes back to my room to say goodnight, and asks me what's wrong. I tell him about the shuttle, and then about seeing the accident, and I didn't even say why they upset me.

And he said: "Yeah, but you're gonna be a good driver."

Just picked it up, out of the little I said. No explainations, no having to try to justify myself. And even though I know we don't always get along and sometimes he's as dense as everyone else in my family, he's still the only one who gets things like that.

I have the best Dad.

So this morning, I was listening to the radio again. Listening to people, things ranging from scientific types to rednecks getting thier pictures taken with the damn wreckage. Some people ought to be shot, really, and sadly, they're usually the ones with the guns.

But I got to thinking half awake, that people judging others that harshly is why things happen. Just... everything, wars and prejuidice and murder. No one can love everyone without reservation. We're just not set up that way, or maybe it's that we're not that mature yet.

I hope it's that; that we're still growing.

mercy, all
mercy all
forgiveness lies
where judgement falls
in all you see
and would condemn
remember, please
you are them
that you would judge
have mercy, all
forgiveness lies
where judgement falls

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[lferion]

You do have a good dad. Thank you for posting.

[spoke.livejournal.com]

(blushes) thanks.