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Mar. 16th, 2003 12:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spokehad... calling it a breakdown feels pretenious, but i was crying last night, and i hardly ever do that. snifle, and whine, yes. actually cry? nuh-uh.
thinking about everything, but most especially needing to learn to drive, and then get a job... and went from there to i can't do anything right, i suck at everything.
i don't know. maybe i'm just moody. maybe if i get somethings finished, like Lark for Tenshi, i'll feel better.
towards which end, i have bleached the paper i'm going to use for Lark. this thing is turning into something rather different than what i set out to do. but then, i have really tried to draw since highschool, until i made my silly little icons for my lj, and i never was good/interested in drawing people. (these two facts may be related, but i don't see how. noo.)
i just keep worrying if its good enough, and will she like, or will she be offended b my awful drawing... (some part of me is saying this is silly and irrational, but i can't /feel/ that way, only think it.)
just... damn it, i'm going to get this thing finished, or at least halfway, today. i am not going to have my sister move out, taking her computer with her, and be stuck in infinite limbo over this.
thinking about everything, but most especially needing to learn to drive, and then get a job... and went from there to i can't do anything right, i suck at everything.
i don't know. maybe i'm just moody. maybe if i get somethings finished, like Lark for Tenshi, i'll feel better.
towards which end, i have bleached the paper i'm going to use for Lark. this thing is turning into something rather different than what i set out to do. but then, i have really tried to draw since highschool, until i made my silly little icons for my lj, and i never was good/interested in drawing people. (these two facts may be related, but i don't see how. noo.)
i just keep worrying if its good enough, and will she like, or will she be offended b my awful drawing... (some part of me is saying this is silly and irrational, but i can't /feel/ that way, only think it.)
just... damn it, i'm going to get this thing finished, or at least halfway, today. i am not going to have my sister move out, taking her computer with her, and be stuck in infinite limbo over this.
