Apr. 25th, 2003

spoke: spider with a pen on a book (Default)
hmm. went in got my drug test it was fine. ha! i waould have-oh, maybe even passed out if it hadn't been.

i mean, considering that i've never so much as had alcohol even after i was legal; the shock if it had turned out bad would probably be the closest to an altered state that i've ever come. lol!

was very irritated and pissy for no apparent reason today. i guess things just trying to boil over, but throwing a screaming fit would not have solved anything. still, i do need to talk to Mom and Dad both about this behaving like i'm just a wee bit slow. acting as if they're being put upon if i need a ride, or when i ask, hedging and making sure i know they have things to do, when i have never asked for much more than rides to work and home. this is what i was afraid would happen if i couldn't get the license; and really, they dump things on me more than the reverse. always, i'm stuck at home, so i'm here to be manual labor and phone-answerer-in-case-it's-bills, etc. and if i express an opinion on anything (say, the war?) of course i don't know anything because,

why? hmm? here, i would like an answer, as apparently a social life is the only way to have a brain.

not that i don't want one, but given that most of the people i have tried to talk to have the same reaction to me that my parents have, it's a bit off-putting. it would be nice to talk to someone (face to face, at least) who does not condescend, intentionally or not.

i would like to know when shy was made a synoymn for stupid?

p.s. the chicken or the egg:

did this mood go into overdrive because Neville's entered headspace, or did Neville get in because the mood made it easier to empathize with him?

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