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Yeah. Used to.

And I just got off the phone with him, and he's been laid off. Which would terrify me - but I have no marketable job skills, just damned cashiering.

So, and he's got some stuff to fall back on, and they're supposed to be helping him find a new job, but here's the thing (his own words) : he's going, in the next couple of weeks, to put the house up for sale.

This house that I am living in.

And he says, if it sells, he will use some of that money helping me find a place and all. But it's just... I've lived on this land all my life, and even trying to psych myself up for moving, and knowing I need to and all - I'm scared.

I'm scared of leaving here and of never having a better job that I can really support myself with and never amounting to anything and just. He dropped this on me like a hammer and I know he's got to be scared some too but now I have to try and get some sleep for work tonight and I have no idea how I'm going to deal with this and just.

I don't know what's going to happen to him, either - and I just hope he calls sometime in the next couple weeks with news of a new job.